Yesterday was a hard day!

So yesterday we went to my daughter's fairly new very experienced and opinionated  doctor. his reputation is one of either love or hate. I have been slow to form an opinion like an onion I have been peeling back the layers to see what I am deeling with. I think he has been doing the same.lol

 So anyway yesterday we went I realized he had not read any of the paper work I have dropped off weeks ago. Read any of the notes I called into him. Disapointing a bit. He is a very busy doctor so open mind. Then I start bringing up the subject of home schooling and the group that I have found for support and social opportunities. He kept cutting me off. Told me home school is the worst thing I could do for any autistc child. Still open mind he is a very experienced professional. I listen and take it in. It does annoy me a bit that he interupts me but doesn't let me interupt him but.... lol His suggestion is and I agree if I was to send her to school she would need a private aid in a mainstream class. She is so high functioning in many ways that this would be so humiliating to her. Kids are mean after all. So I asked if he was taking into account her bipolar when making the over all recomendations. He said she does not have bipolar. Well at this point I  felt myself do the cartoon head shake and say whawha what? But I think I faked composure I will never know for sure I suppose. I do however take it as a a good sign no security was called . His axact were "Just because some doctor says she is bipolar doesn't make her bipolar" OMG I have lived with her father for many years. I live with her daily. Her counselors, many doctors not just one. Including ones from Duke,and many others . I do not just find a quack that will tell me what I want to hear . AS if any of this is what I would want to hear.

 I have seen so much improvement as well as others since she has been home. Including socially, her confidence has improved a ton. However she doesn't care for this specialist yesterday and gets very nervous going. Even with her supports in place she could not hold it together and it was a bad day for her. So an aid in a stressful classrrom after a very long bus ride cause she will have to be bussed to a much further school I am alomst posative.  Is not goignt o be the ideal for her in my opinion. I do not want to protect her from the world. infact quite the opposite. I want to show it to her and let her enjoy it, learn it and better perticipate in it.

 I welcome any opinion honestly. Thanks nesters