Uncle

I'm still trying to get my mind wrapped around all that is happening this week. I am so sad and want to do something but not sure what that Uncle Lenny is gone.  I have lost so many of my family members beside my mom and dad over the past years.  Out of 6 siblings on my mom's side I only have 1 left. 3 died the same year my mom died. Out of 5 on my dad's side I have 2 left.   3 died within the past 3 years. 

This uncle hit me hard. Maybe because he just started to live life.  Maybe because I was getting my relationship back with him after the 30 horrible years he was married. We were close when I was little. He used to watch me if my parets went out. Maybe because he was suppose to get married soon. It is a combination though. I just miss him so much.

I am mad at him for not listening to the doctor. I know the doctor said that even if he did get the operation, he may still have died. But at least try. Why not try? All he had to do is get over his fear and let Dr. L do his magic on his heart.

It is going to be hard driving pass his house that is empty now. He has no children to leave the house to so now we dont' know what is going to happen to the house and everything.  His house is on my grandfathers land, with my brothers house on the other part of the land. Up the street is my aunt, who is still alive.  They will have to sell the house most likely. My brother will be selling his house since he lives in CA. So there goes the family land.  I have this thing I like to keep things like they were.

Up the hill is my mom's family land. My grandma's house which was sold, my uncle's house which my cousin bought, my aunt's house which she is still living there and then my mom's house which dad's second wife lives in. 

I think off all the wonderful memories we had with all my relatives living on one road. Can you imagine having all your relatives both sides on one street?  I was good and bad. I did have a few that lived away from the street but they were always very close to me.  We got together every Sunday, both sides, when I was younger.

If you have family, cherish them, help them, love them, listen to them because someday they will be gone. If you have someone that has to have surgery, convience them to have it and that you will be there.

You cannot replace them once they are gone. Thank God for memories to keep you close to them.