The seen and the unseen

Good afternoon all,

Once again I find myself in a struggle to find out just who God really is- the one true real God.

Today being Easter, my husband and I made the pilgrimidge to a church to celebrate, well, you know. The Pastor talked about the God of miracles, the God of unconditional love and true forgiveness. The unseen and yet seen God. The house was packed, standing room only, you'd of thought it was sample day at Costco  er something...  I wondered as I looked around the room at all the people, what their experience of God was.

I, of course, in an instant, wanted to poll the whole joint.

"Okay those of you who fully believe with no doubt, with absolute conviction, please raise your hands. Those of you who want to believe or need to believe, raise your hands."  Would it really matter what was revealed? Would it help me in my struggle? Probably not.

For those of you wondering if I did actually poll the place; alas, I did not. Of course I had to bite a hole in my cheek to keep from doing it, not to mention, I do not know a single soul who has ever been kicked out of a church in the middle of Easter services.  Could you imagine? " Uh  ma'am, we're gonna have to ask you to leave the premises. We just can't have you scaring the women and children like that."

There are probably a zillion different religions out there (give or take 2 or 6). Who has it right? Do they all have it right? How do you know? I know there is a God, but I lost track of him during my childhood. I've been a christian (you know, I don't even know what that really means) for a long time, and I've never really felt comfortable with some of the doctrine. Dogma, I think has soiled what once was a beautiful message from God to the whole world. I know that it is not within my DNA to be elitest or seperatist within the confines of my spiritual beliefs; I love everyone.

So who is right and who is God?

I have a friend who is a psychic, who is one of the most spiritual people I have ever met, loves me unconditionally ( a very tall order, just ask my dog) and loves God and yet I was chastise by my (Christian) friends for my relationship with her. My Christian friends have fallen by the way-side, my other friend's love and support still remain. Things that make you go hmmm.

Let me be perfectly clear (oh my gosh, I just had a Richard Nixon flashback). Im not bashing Christianity, I'm just lookin' for the truth. I don't care where I find it, shoot, the tooth fairy could deliver it to me and I'd be tickeled pink.  Come to think of it, I'd probaly ask her what was up with a measly quarter under my pillow all those years ago? I mean really, what a tight-wad!

Any way, just some rumblings from cranial cave!