positive energy

i feel like everything i held dear is slipping away. i really am a positive person most of the time but right now its so hard to stay positive. i've been packing and thats really hard because even though larry says he doesn't see a future, i do, he still says we can be friends but i'm not sure he really knows what he wants. my father who is in the hospital with an irregular heartbeat looks better than he did but he doesn't think he will make it out of the hospital. so i can't tell him about my relationshhip problems. my oldest son who recently bought a house with his girlfriend invited me to stay with him for awhile. i told him that it would be nice to spend time with him and get to know his girlfriend better and to teach her how to cook. lol but i don't want to intrude. what do you think any advice or opinions would be nice. i'm not looking for anyone to feel sory for me just a friend to talk to. it seems like all my life i was always there when i was needed but when i need a friend there not there for me so a friendly ear and a little advice would be great. all would also ask that you keep me and my family in your prayers and any positive energy you could send my way would greatly lift my spirits.

thanks

shelley