I am taking control

 I have decided after a year really of stumbles and falls and much deep thought. A couple way too close calls to family loss and crisises. Too many all knowing experts not knowing a dang thing in my family's life. That I am tired of being in the back seat. I asked myself what happened to Kian? Where did I go?  When was I the happiest, my kids, my husband, all of us together. I have to put this train back on the track for good.

 We pulled my oldest out of school on 4-25 and wow what a difference. She used to never ask questions that really would open the door to some cool learning . If she did she would say oh never mind .  Now she is like a sponge thirsty for water. She is asking questions awesome questions. Things we go to the library or turn to the internet to look the answers up. She is cooking and figuring the measurments. Eagerly as well I add.   Her social and behavior skills have improved 10 fold as well. Her doctors and counselors are all impressed and even suggested I continue to home school the upcoming year. Which after much investigation I have decided to do. As well as pull my others out and school them as well.

 My family needs me to slow things down and speed up the learning for them. We need to rebuild ourselves, our bonds and recover from our losses and battles this year. That the so called experts never allowed us to do. Rsu rush get back into the world of your a no body and get over it . That just doesn't work. I am not saying It will be easy always or will be right for always. But for now I know in my heart and mind that this is right and I am finally at peace and feel like I can breath and so do my kids. They all have little note books jotting down questions and things they want to learn about. so cute. Even my 4 year old has been drawing and telling me things for his little notebook.

I have always had several home school friends so I am not new to the idea just have not really had the calmness and control of other things that I do now thankfully. Timing is everything. I have joined up with a local support club that has sports tams and seem like very like minded religion neutrual minded families. So I am excited about that. The kids will have many real social opportunities not just sit and don't talk as it is in school or ight over the lack of fairness of things as it is in school.

 Well For a first blog post this was a long winded one huh? Well I just wanted to in some way make it official even though I can not legally do that till August here.  I wanted to kinda make my war chant heard lol. In all seriousness I am just so excited to have peace for once in so long that I feel like shouting it everywhere but that would be a bad thing so I figured this was my best bet. Thanks nesters, Kian